I recently had a bit of a freak out over my life. I suddenly realised that I no longer want to do what I’ve been planning to do over the last few years. I wanted to give up on everything I had worked towards.
I’ve wanted to be a makeup artist for so long, and I spent a good few years in college studying and training to be a makeup artist, and I absolutely loved doing it. I learnt everything from fashion, beauty, face and body painting, special effects and hair styling, and I love being so creative and artistic all the time. Yet after taking a year off before going to uni, I suddenly came to the realisation that I don’t want to do this as a career. I don’t want to go to university for 3 years and spend thousands and thousands of pounds on something that I no longer love. That would be a waste.
Telling my mum that I had changed my mind was awful, but in the end I had no reason to stress as she was so supportive of my choice. She genuinely wants what is best for me, and if I’m not happy then why should I continue with it for another 3 years.
So the question is now, what do I want to do? And the answer is I have no idea! I’m 22 and I have no idea what I want to do with my life, which kind of stressed me out to start with.
Over the last couple of days I started to piece my life together and figure out what I want to do, and for the now I don’t want to give myself a solid plan. Like I said, I’m 22 and in the grand scheme of things, thats not old at all. I have years to figure myself out, so I’m going to take it step by step.
For now my plan is to get myself a full time job, and save money. One of the things I’m desperate to do is go travelling. I’ve seen some of Europe throughout my life, but I want to see more. So at the moment, my plan is to interrail around Europe in the summer of 2019. That gives me a year and a half to save my money, and have the experience of a life time. I’m going to talk more about my travelling plans in a separate blog post, so keep an eye out for that. Other than that, I want to work a lot on this blog. I absolutely love blogging, and writing whats on my mind, so hopefully this blog will become bigger and better. And if i do go travelling that will make for some amazing content, which I’m already excited to write!
So the purpose of this post is to basically say that its okay to not know what you want to do. These things will come to you in time, and I’m okay with waiting for that moment.